Thursday, November 30, 2023
Sunday, November 26, 2023
Friday, November 10, 2023
Hell is other people - he said it, but....
I could've done without the last part, though....
Thursday, November 9, 2023
More of my truth!
Sobbing like a 5 year old, oh yes, I've been on & off sobbing since I was 5, & for the most part, a nervous wreck, angry, sad, insecure, unsafe and contemplating suicide..... and my so-called family including my MOTHER never noticed.
(Didn't care what I went through at school either, and those damn teachers didn't seem to notice I was a sad, miserable child.)
And in those RARE moments I was happy, it didn't last long. NOT once, did ANYONE ever ask if I was OK.... cause THEY don't care if I'm ok, that's what happens when you're RAISED BY NARCISSISTS!
Like I said on another post, my mother can barely stand me, I NEVER felt like she wanted me around, and I can't talk to her cause she really can't be bothered but I better not disrespect her, & I BETTER help her, when she needs it, with a smile on my face.
Check this out, one time early this year, I made the mistake of reading out loud to my mother, one of many "mental health" or whatever articles about my issues- this one in particular proved that my type of "family environment" causes anxiety and her response to this was "OH, POOR YOU!"
Now, does that sound like someone who REALLY gives a damn?! She is never on my side, I should have been able to cry on her shoulder..
Anyway, time to talk about what was happening when I was 5 years old, my mother was in the hospital a lot when she was pregnant and at least, one of those times... my father left me in the car by myself at night, while he was in a bar or whatever and I remember crying or sobbing hysterically, cause I was worrying he was never coming back... I don't remember what happened when he finally came back. I also don't remember if it happened more than once.
Once again, I'M A 5 YEAR OLD LITTLE GIRL CRYING HYSTERICALLY IN THE CAR ALONE CAUSE MY FATHER JUST LEFT ME ALONE IN THAT CAR AT NIGHT, WHILE HE WAS DOING WHATEVER, PROBABLY CHEATING ON MY MOTHER...
Of course, if I told my aunt, cousin, or sisters about it, they probably wouldn't even believe me. So they can kiss my ass, and don't cry at my funeral!
Wednesday, November 8, 2023
Jethro Tull- Pan Dance
It hasn't been that long since I posted about a Jethro Tull song but listening to it, makes me think of something....
It sounds like the perfect music to play while MAKING LOVE- which I doubt most people even do. Something beautiful and romantic.
Most of humanity ain't into that, they would rather do the things acted out in THOSE videos, and magazines, things a perverted industry made up- an example of humanity's depravity and how warped most people are. Serial killers ALWAYS have a collection of that crap. Of course, that sicko pervert Steve Powell LOVED watching that FILTH!
Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about.... rhymes with corn, and begins with the letter P
You're not allowed to criticize that "art form" or you will be called a prude... frankly, there are worse things to be!
Monday, November 6, 2023
Ignorance is genetic!
Something happened last night that reminded me of a vile pattern- my piece of shit cousin Rhonda Thompas Morton just happens to leave her room to walk to the bathroom( with her pajama pants at her ankles and top up, so her buttcheeks are EXPOSED for some inexplicable reason) as I'm walking up the steps to go to my bedroom... This was not the first time I was exposed to dumbass family member's PRIVATE PARTS, my grandmother used to get up at night to go to the bathroom with a camisole and NO underwear on(her bedroom was connected to my room), Derick Jr. opened the bathroom door once as his towel falls off and his penis is exposed, as I am walking to my room, I think he wanted that to happen, cause he had to hear me walking, right before he opened the door, his girlfriend Naje- naked in the hallway as I leave my room AGAIN... How dare I leave my bedroom or come upstairs to go to bed or the bathroom, trouble finds me and knowing the way THEY are, it's somehow my fault.... funny how no one EVER sees me half-naked... I guess I'm the only one in this IGNORANT family with COMMON SENSE and DIGNITY!
And if I remember correctly in another post, I mentioned that the queen of the imbeciles(aunt Margie) during my childhood would leave the bathroom after washing, completely naked, apparently it took her awhile to figure out what a bathrobe was or just to take her bra & panties in the DAMN BATHROOM WITH HER!
Yes, people who leave their bedroom or bathroom or walk around the house with private parts exposed when they live with people they aren't sleeping with, all willy-nilly are IGNORANT!
Not to mention, the sitting on the toilet with the door OPEN- which both Margie & Rhonda are guilty of.