Gladys Knight and The Pips- On and On

 For some reason, I NEVER hear this song on certain radio stations, but of course, I can be guaranteed to hear crap like This Is How We Do It or Ring My Bell- which should've never been a hit in the first place, and needs to be thrown in the trash and forgotten!

Luther Vandross - Bad Boy/Having a Party

 

Nobody part 2...

 Found an old note where it said that Lapis supposedly protects you from negative energy directed at you. My whole life has been people TARGETING me with their negative energy! 

I don't wanna hear any toxic positivity when I've been a victim of NEGATIVE ENERGY since I was a little girl.....

I keep seeing articles or whatever about various herbs/supplements that calm you down or relieve anxiety. Frankly, I can't understand how anything can keep me CALM when I'm constantly being TRIGGERED by EMPTYHEADED ASSHOLES!!

Another song from my childhood I'm rediscovering...

 Or paying MORE attention to!

Love's Train by Confunkshun 

Nobody....

 I can't believe how much TIME and money I wasted on hair growth, trying to improve skin issues, etc.

 Like it matters with THIS FACE, maybe I should've been trying to get plastic surgery instead.

I just want to be invisible so I can be in this world without being judged and be left alone in PEACE.....

I need to come to terms with the fact that even my so-called family thought I was an ugly, unworthy little girl, and that they think I don't deserve to be treated like a human being and that I don't deserve LOVE.....

And THEY better not cry at my funeral, or pretend to be all sad. Matter of fact, I don't even want a funeral, they can just throw me in the ground like the nothing they think I'm am.....

(On a lighter note, I wish I would waste anymore money on overpriced lotions/moisturizers, when they're really not much better than the cheaper ones. Who cares!)

Atlantic Starr- Let's Get Closer

 Originally, this was supposed to be a music blog, let's get back to that.....

The Hypocrisy of the Black "community"!

 In youtube comments, etc., members of the "community" will say, (when talking about Michael Jackson) things like "He was so handsome before he had plastic surgery, I wish he knew how handsome he was." Meanwhile, most of these people are some damn hypocrites, because most of the so-called community spend their whole lives making fun of each other's looks. We NEVER were a community to begin with!

"Your own people hurt you more." Jimi Hendrix

The "community" is TOXIC!

Black people are the most bullying and the most judgemental group on earth- constantly talking about each other, gossiping about each other, laughing at each other, and calling each other ugly(featurism). 

I wonder how many of these commenters are destroying someone's self-esteem as I write this, causing that person to want to go under the knife.

Many of these same people think Lupita Nyongo is unattractive.

My reality!

 

"She was so sensitive! But it was the way she was crying, it's like they hurt her so deeply, in her soul. It's like she couldn't help herself from hurting so deep." 

Make it make sense...

Here is an example of something I consider a type of evil! Sometime in the late 90s or so, I would spend a lot of time at the park in Rittenhouse Square or whatever, most times I would sit on a bench & listen to music, or sometimes I would be reading or "writing"- this particular time I was mostly listening to music, and escaping into fantasy land(which I've been doing since I was 5), when this old couple who were the same racial background as me sat on a bench across from me and after maybe 15 minutes or so, both of them start talking about me, saying something like " Look at her, she can't even smile, she doesn't even know how to smile" in such a judgmental and frustrated tone. Mr. and Mrs. DUMBASS have no idea of what I've been through(and don't care), haven't walked in my shoes, it never occurs to them that maybe I don't have a reason to smile, cause they're evil and stupid. Sensitive and thinking people don't say stupid shit like that... they probably abused their children. 

Funny how they didn't notice that I'm a lost, sad girl trapped in a woman's body, but that doesn't matter to people like that. All they care about is how I supposedly offended them by not being happy go lucky and friendly...