A thought..

 Growing up without a lot of friends might just have been a blessing, what if I was talked into going to and participating in some VILE mess like Freaknik....

Bullied by EVERYONE!

 Damn right, THEY (my family) don't respect me, don't VALUE, like or care about me!

I don't know why I expected comfort from family, when they never liked me either....

"The child not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel it's warmth" African proverb 

I'm DONE!

 This quote is paraphrased from a video that I can't share for some damn reason, inspired by Monique's crappy treatment of her son or rather, the son's tiktok venting about her....

"In black families, the children don't have a voice. Even after you become an adult, your parents think they should be able to do or say whatever, and you should be able to just take it on the chin. We should just be seen and not heard, even as freakin adults!"

In our so-called community, most parents/grandparents/aunties think they shouldn't have to be ACCOUNTABLE for the damage they caused.... so fuck the black family!

A Major Myth About Psychological Trauma -- Thoughts of a Former Therapist

The Weird Girl Trope, Explained

Probably....

I do remember that somewhere between the ages of ages of 5-8, I used to ESCAPE to my own little pretend world while pacing back & forth, apparently my imagination or whatever stopped working, when I sat down.

Pretty sure, this started AFTER the incident of my father leaving me alone in the car....

90s rock is special.....

"Under the bridge/downtown/Is where I drew some blood"

The New birth - Wildflower [Soul Train]

Why do I identify with these lyrics?

The Lone Wolf [ A product of a Narcissistic Home ]