More of me - part 2

 

WOW!

 

Sounds like my mother...

 

More of me ...

Imagine people (especially FAMILY) making your life such a living hell, you have to ESCAPE to a fantasy world.... Well, that's my existence.

My mother is becoming more and more like her damn mother lately, she's even starting to look like her.... And just like her, she LOVES The Price Is Right, I HATE that show!

Here's another video from that channel that I can identify with:

I was watching another video the other day about men not valuing vulnerability in their romantic relationships because they were more likely to be emotionally neglected by their parents and then have disassociate identity disorder or whatever while women were more likely to grow up in emotionally healthy environments and more likely to have received affection from their female relatives and got "emotional nurturing and soothing" from their mother, sisters, aunties. 

Huh?

I must be a man then, LOL!

It's nonsense because neither my mother or any other of the women in my so-called family were ever emotionally nurturing or soothing to me... which is why I'm MENTALLY ILL!

 And I'm not gonna feel guilty for not wanting to help take care of my mother in her old age, even with all of her issues, when she has NEVER been the kind of mother I needed, NEVER will acknowledge the emotional neglect & sometimes emotional abuse, never apologizes and most of my life acts like she can't stand me! Won't feel guilty or FORGIVE when she always makes me feel like I DON'T MATTER.

Her latest issues are just another excuse not to give a damn about me, and no matter how bad she's feeling, it doesn't stop her from starting shit with me.. 

EVERYONE NEEDS to watch this....

 It's about the Columbia Records study (the Harvard Report) and music's healing powers.

I don't know who she is, but I wanna look like her, when I "grow up"

Maybe not the nose rings though...

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https://pin.it/7cSbPBB7T 

A thought..

 Growing up without a lot of friends might just have been a blessing, what if I was talked into going to and participating in some VILE mess like Freaknik....

Bullied by EVERYONE!

 Damn right, THEY (my family) don't respect me, don't VALUE, like or care about me!

I don't know why I expected comfort from family, when they never liked me either....

"The child not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel it's warmth" African proverb 

I'm DONE!

 This quote is paraphrased from a video that I can't share for some damn reason, inspired by Monique's crappy treatment of her son or rather, the son's tiktok venting about her....

"In black families, the children don't have a voice. Even after you become an adult, your parents think they should be able to do or say whatever, and you should be able to just take it on the chin. We should just be seen and not heard, even as freakin adults!"

In our so-called community, most parents/grandparents/aunties think they shouldn't have to be ACCOUNTABLE for the damage they caused.... so fuck the black family!