Gap Band - Burn Rubber On Me (Why You Wanna Hurt Me)

My Quiet Storm...

Here's another one of my spotify playlists, featuring gems such as You're Still A Young Man by Tower Of Power, Yearning For Your Love by The Gap Band, & Whitney Houston's BEST song- which also happened to be her debut single (if I remember correctly) - You Give Good Love!




https://open.spotify.com/user/topofthecity/playlist/2XltEGtA9ta7jwaHagdxnq

Tim Buckley-I Woke Up

For some reason, people are always going on & on about Jeff Buckley & covering his songs but frankly, I thought his Grace album was boring.
Meanwhile, I rarely hear about his father- Tim Buckley- who made more interesting music and had a better voice.


This is the 3rd time I've created a post about a song from his out of this world Starsailor album.

To Whom It May Concern... or ayannadawn's revenge

So-called FAMILY ....... IF you happen to read this.... when I would go to school or anywhere else, when I was a kid & get laughed at, picked on, bullied, whatever, I should 've been able to come home to ALL OF YOU &  count on you for comfort or have felt comfortable confiding in you about all of it, but no, even back then,  for goodness sake,  as young as 10 or 11 years old,  something inside me said YOU couldn't be trusted, so why bother. And you have proven me right ever since!               

Link to another one of my posts about my family- click below






The next link is for an article that does a very good job of explaining what kids like me had to go through, it says parents but in my case, its the WHOLE damn family. Scroll down to get to the 6 ways, cause the first few paragraphs aren't relevant:
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/childhood-neglect/2018/11/6-ways-you-may-have-been-raised-to-feel-alone/




























































(Put certain names as part of the title after I leave)

The only Christmas song I can stand...

Haven't officially had a panic attack- yet......

Paranoia.....

 

Crying my eyes out. Severe anxiety. Am I a ticking time bomb? Tearful rage while at the computer. My chest felt tight as I banged the keys. Family working my nerves from every angle. I suppress my true feelings. Tormented mind. I've been getting tension headaches for years, and now I'm having pain in my shoulders.  I think there's a mental blockage that always keep me from saying more......

Physically absent father/emotionally absent mother (& extended family on my mother's side), don't know my father's side, as well (didn't have to live with them) although I heard some things about my grandmother on my father's side that make her sound pretty toxic.


https://amotherfarfromhome.com/present-but-absent-parent/












Not one of you could be there for me when I needed you, & I can't count on you to help me feel better, but you can make plenty of snarky comments.

Free myself from toxic family!

Have to get away from these people. Surrounded by ignorant, inconsiderate people. So-called extended family have caused as much damage as parents, for decades. Affecting my mental & physical well-being- can't focus, non-existent short term memory, bad dreams(usually starring family members & I wake up, practically in tears) - diagnosed with anxiety disorder.








Toxic... like aunt Margie who tells LIES about me....  THROWING ME UNDER THE BUS ALL MY LIFE (well, since I was 10)- the same aunt who laughed when I mentioned, as a kid, that I wanted to be a singer or actor or whatever, the same aunt who loved to look in my drawers, closet, storage bins when I wasn't in my room, even messing with the trash to see what I threw in there. And, for some reason, when I was growing up, her favorite words about me, in such a venomous & hateful tone (imagine having a hateful tone about a child, who is your blood) were - "She ain't doing nothing"- never saying that about any of the other kids in the house. (She always has a venomous tone when talking about me)




Not to mention, her evil eyes watching me all the time, staring at me.....  
And her vile daughter(& husband) and vile grandson (& baby mama) with their malicious words/lies & interloping ways....






I hope she reads these things I'm writing about her ... not that the guttersnipe knows what the word venomous means...




Edited 2/13/19-And this she-devil, sewing-machine snake had the nerve to scold me, about the way I take the baked mac & cheese out of the pan when I'm fixing my plate, like I'm a damn kid..... she thinks she has the right to talk to me any ole kind of way, she would never talk to anyone else in the family like that, not her daughter, her grandson, or his baby mama but as usual, she talks to me like a dog, just like she did when I was a kid. What right does she have to be angry at me ever....the way she has treated me, I should be yelling at her, & talking to her with disrespect & contempt. She deserves it, she should've been watching her back, not tempting me to finally stand up to her or worse.
If you're reading this, I HATE YOU, YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT!

Kill The Messenger....DAMNIT!!!!

Whatever you do, watch Kill The Messenger or even better- read the book!






RIP Gary Webb...








Edited 1/23/18- Meanwhile, some movie glorifying The Washington Post is constantly being promoted on tv and just got nominated for a best picture Oscar..... of course, this is the same so-called newspaper that helped destroy Gary Webb's career......I don't remember Kill The Messenger getting nominated for best picture... FUCK The Washington Post!

FUNKY PLAYLIST!!!

https://open.spotify.com/user/topofthecity/playlist/7CgQyBdhLDsz9epofqP1Wj






EnJOY!








The Brothers Johnson, James Brown, Slave, Cameo, Ohio Players, etc.

And when you click on that link, you can scroll down for more of my playlists.